My Form of Rebellion

You know when that feeling when you don't feel in control of your life anymore? When life is a top thats not only spinning too fast, but its wobbling uncontrollably and looks like it might fall over at any second?

Dear Brain: I did the math. I'm now counting my senior year of high school into the equation of how long I've been in school for without breaks. So thats... (quick addition using my fingers) just over 2 years of school STRAIGHT THROUGH. And in that time I've also had three failed and stressful relationships, lots of friend/roommate drama, and plenty of test anxiety. So I really don't blame you, Brain, for shutting down on me.

But these two years have also been the BEST years of my life, Brain! I've fallen in love more than once, made new friends, graduated high school and went to college, moved out on my own, became an adult and learned what really matters in life. I've gone to my first two concerts, been out of the country, went to Disney World, and gone on several road trips just for kicks. I've grown up, Brain. So quit whining and grow up too!

I'm taking over the management of my life. Its not going to spin out of control on my watch. How am I going to do this? First of all, I'm going to schedule myself carefully so that everything gets done without too much hair being ripped out in the process. Secondly? Well, a little rebellion never hurt anyone... :)

Yep, I painted my nails black. Awesome.

Don't worry, all rebellion entails in my book is painting my nails black and not letting what other people think define me. I've been putting way too much stock in other's opinions lately. Don't you dare tell me who to be, You are not me, who made you king of anything?


King of Anything Music Video by Sara Bareilles


Yep, I'm lifting my head up high. I can do anything I set my mind to. I'm no longer too young, inexperienced or overworked. This is the best time of my life! I'M SO PUMPED!!!